OUCH! I hate it when God hits me right between the eyes!! And it was coming from all directions....church, bible study, a marriage testimony!
We all know there are things in our life that we need to work on. But I am REALLY good at denial. You know what I am talking about. We can't pay the bills because we don't make enough money. Certainly it can't be because I have trouble not buying anything for more than 2 consecutive days! Finances have always been a challenge for me. That is putting it mildly. I fail constantly at finances. I have my entire life. But God has been prodding my heart lately that my problem is not our shortage of money, my problem is selfish desires. I can rationalize the purchase of just about anything. I think I am being good if I only go shopping at thrift stores. But I am fulfilling desires that are all about me, while ignoring the bigger picture of paying our bills and getting out of debt.
It takes a long time to change a lifetime habit. I know I have my work cut out for me, but I am praying diligently that God will change my heart and destroy my selfish desires.
Oh friend, how I can relate!
ReplyDeleteSelf-control and self-discipline are EXTREMELY hard! Isn't it great we can pursue becoming like Jesus under grace? Man, I'd be killing animals for sacrifice everyday!
By the way, I answered your question in the comments on my blog. :)
you just need to go shopping with me :) i'm good at talking you OUT of all the things you talk yourself into.
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ReplyDeleteThank you for stopping by and for your sweet words! It is nice to meet you.
We have always had a problem with money....our issues were born out of entitlement really. My hubby grew up pretty well off and always getting what he wanted, and grew up with nothing but always "wanted". Not the best combination :-)
The last few years we have been forced to deal with our financial craziness due to my having to leave work, and I am amazed at how God has provided and restored in that area as well.
Still hard, and still a struggle internally, but at least our hearts are striving towards God now.
Can't wait to read more! Have a blessed week!